Monday, November 10, 2014

Halloween Time 2014

We had a lot of fun visiting the various pumpkin patches nearby. We made it to three and you loved it just as much as I did!
First up was a large farm that had so many hands on things for pre-school age kids to do. We took a ha y ride to feed the ducks, played with bubbles, magnet builders, slides and a corn bath!

Your best boy buds! C, T and A
This wasn't a pumpkin patch, just our local park where we ride the train and carousel. You loved trying to pick up all the pumpkins!
We went to Davis and visited a fun patch with tons of baby animals to pet and hold. You loved the kittens the most!

 pumpkin lover!
The third was a local farm where we buy produce. It was a cute one and you and L loved the big corn bath!

Our play group did a Trunk or Treat at a park. It was off and on rain all morning, but that didn't stop us. It was a great practice run for everyone's costumes and it's where you officially became obsessed with DumDum suckers!

 Your Daycare provider made these beautiful frozen themed decorations for her own trunk or treat. We recycled and totally took credit for the beauty!

We've created a tradition of carving pumpkins at Nana's house. Grampa C is a master carver! You still weren't too into the pumpkin guts and jack o lanterns.

Our plan was to just visit our favorite neighbors for trick-or-treating, but our play group friends ended up coming to our hood. Since A and L are a little older than you, you were able to watch how they did it and caught on quick! You LOVED it!

If you would have known you had a choice in the matter, you would have been Elsa from Frozen. But since I'm still in charge, I picked Raggedy Ann. And I'm so glad I did because it was adorable!
You were so hard to get a picture of!
So much fun. Happy Halloween!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

2 years old!

Two years old feels like such a huge milestone for all of us. Two years brought a fun trip to Hawaii for mommy and daddy. That trip brought our first nights away from each other and subsequently the end of nursing. This has been the sweetest and most fulfilling two years of my life.  You seem to also make the most of your toddler life. I love that none of us seem to be in a hurry for you to grow up. You embrace each day with so much enthusiasm and still welcome all the comforts mommy and daddy can provide.

Grandma came up to stay with you. She spent the first half of the week with us, then we left on Thursday for our trip and Grandpa drove up to stay for the weekend. You loved having them here SO much and so did I. You call them Bompa and Bapa and it's the cutest thing to see you all interact. When we got back from Hawaii we went out with Nana and Grandpa C for birthday ice cream and a choo choo ride. As soon as we pulled into the parking lot you knew we were near the train. It was "choo! choo!" all night long. 

Pretty stoked to get your very own birthday ice cream! Yum!
You've been so pleasant for bed time this past month. I snapped this pic, realizing that it was the last night I would put you down as a 1 year old. My big girl. 

You share a bday with your bff's mama, N so we met them both for a starbucks treat the morning of your birthday. 
Uncle T came to take us to lunch and bring your birthday presents. You loved seeing him!
That night I made your favorite (spaghetti) and we had Nana and Grampa over. 
They got you an art easel and other art supplies and you were in heaven painting. Perfect present for you!

We had so much fun celebrating your big 2nd birthday!

Thursday, October 2, 2014

The End of an Era

One of Daddy's accounts sent us to Hawaii right before your 2nd bday. Grandma came and stayed with you and the plan was to have weaned you before we left. Welp. That didn't ever happen. Not even close. If we're being honest, you probably nursed more in the week leading up to our trip than you had since you were an infant. It's like you knew they were going away. I didn't say a word about it. At this point you understand everything and I just didn't think getting you upset and then leaving would help at all.

So it was cold turkey.

I knew you would be fine with grandma and grandpa, it was coming home that I was worried about.

We got home very late on Sunday and when you woke up Monday, I opened your door and immediately took you into the kitchen so as to avoid the glider. You were distracted for a good 30 minutes and then it hit you.....ninnies (what you call them). I told you ninnies were all gone, that ninnies had to go byebye.

With tears in your eyes, you looked up at me and said "ninnies byebye?" I said yes and you buried your head in my chest and cried. With tears. "byebye ninnies" you said, over and over. And over.

But then you got over it and ate your breakfast.

The hardest time was post-nap. You had a fit and tried your best to convince me. I'm really glad grandma was still here because otherwise I definitely would have given in.

I wasn't 100% ready to be done but I also knew I had to take advantage of the trip and the time apart. Each day has gotten easier, but now three weeks later, you still occasionally ask. You still say "byebye ninnies" whenever I tell you they are all gone. Last week I was getting ready to get into the shower. So you saw them. Your eyes lit up "ninnies!!" like...hey mom, I found them! But I just keep saying the same thing and you said byebye once again.

We made it almost two years, kid. Wow what a ride. I have to say it's pretty nice and quite the time saver to not be nursing now, but I miss our morning and night time snuggle sessions immensely. It was a great time out for both of us. I think you miss that time too and I've been trying to make sure we get some good loving in each day.

 Now that I'm not nursing I cannot imagine never nursing. What an amazing connection we have thanks to breast feeding. I know we would have had a connection, obviously, but nursing and now not nursing really makes it clear that it is a beautiful thing.

It was not always easy and there were times I didn't think I would even make it to six months let alone two years.  I doubt you will ever thank me for it, but I'm so proud to say we did it and that you are a healthy, thriving two year old thanks to our efforts.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

22 and 23 Months!

To say we have been busy would be an understatement. I'm currently trying to work as much as I can both as a lawyer and now as a Realtor. You have a busy social calendar and such an active group of friends, sometimes it's hard to keep up! But we have such a great routine and you seem to love being so busy. You now spend about two full days a week at daycare. It's a long day for both of us, but seemingly necessary as I grow professionally. I work a lot on the weekends and in the evenings, too. I really enjoy having some day time available for all of our fun stuff. 

You still love to play at the playland. Tea parties and lots of pretending!
 Your first amusement part was 6 Flags. Locals still call it Marine World and fun fact: daddy's first job was at Marine world! You loved all of the animals and did pretty well on the kiddie rides. It was a long day but we had fun with Auntie A and her kids and your cousin, L who was in town visiting Nana from Michigan!
Getting splashed by the dolphins. You weren't too sure about that concept!

you are the ultimate love. Such a snuggler, you still love to be held, and hugged!
 You and Maverick are both expert tomato hunters. You work as a pair to get those yum yums in daddy's garden!
I spent Bremy's 3rd birthday with my mommy friends in Napa. It was very, very nice to be able to be away and distracted for the day. I had my fair share of tears the night before, but these girls were so sweet and I had a great day getting away from it all.
Having fun with your cousin, L. It's a shame she lives so far--you guys were so cute together!

Weight: 26lbs
Height:   ?
Diaper size-  Size 5
Clothing Size: 2t and 3t tops, squeezing 2t sleepers and mostly 2t pants

 Your speech improves by the day and we love, love hearing you talk. You're now using two and three word sentences.  While your cousin was visiting, the two of you watched Frozen and since that day you have been belting out "let it go" like it was your job. the enthusiasm and hand motions just add to the absolute hilarity. You stand on our brick fireplace and make sure your audience is paying full attention. You continue to love a stage.

You love to dance and still love to complete little tasks Daddy and I ask you to do, like putting your diaper in the trash or putting clothes in the hamper. You love to help empty the dishwasher and are now responsible for feeding Maverick twice a day. You cal him "deedee" and say "deedee, yum!" and point to his bowl. You are delighted when he comes running and chows down. 

You are recognizing more and more letters and animals. 

Eating-  with your improved speech comes more and more requests for specific foods. Any sweet treat is a "yum" you also love bananas (nanas), and still love your yogurt and smoothies. 

Still nursing quite often.

Sleep: waking up early! Around 615 even with going to bed around 845. Otherwise consistently napping and sleeping through the night. The daycare has you nap 230-430 so that's the schedule we are on at home as well. 

Favorite Toys: You still LOVE to pretend to be on the phone. You say "hi, ummmmm....yayaya" I must say that a lot because you have it down. 
You also love your baby dolls  and pretending to clean the house with me. You wipe down the counter where you eat and love to push the broom. 

Ellie, I couldn't love being with you more. You are such a joy and such a light. I miss the baby stage but I'm loving the level of independence you've developed and I love your spirited personality. You have had your fair share of quick tantrums, but for the most part you are great about going along to get along. You are so sweet with other kids and know how to turn on the charm with adults. It is impossible to be in a bad mood around you. Despite a lot of stressors in our life, you continue to make me happier than I have ever been. 

Friday, August 29, 2014

Dear Bremy

It's been three years.

It seems August 13th will always be a hard day for me. It wasn't meant to be a day of any significance. Just another day pregnant, three years ago. But now, it holds so many painful memories and so much love and hope lost.

I'm beginning to realize and accept that I'm not strange for taking this so hard. Maybe I'm just more up front with the difficulties, but I hear more and more of the pain people go through with infant loss. A family member revealed his wife wont even try again after a traumatic early miscarriage. A respected colleague of mine, with two kids revealed he and his wife went through something similar and his wife cannot talk about it to this day--so they've never ever talked about it. He also told me he has a family member who is well in to her 40s and still cries very often over the baby she lost in her 20s. I hate to know anyone hurts as much as I have, but somehow it is comforting to know that others know this loss. And that maybe I'm handling it in a somewhat healthy matter.

This year felt harder than last. Not sure why, exactly. Daddy took it harder too. He even put a post on facebook, which he rarely does. As much as it hurt, it was very brave of him to share the pain of your birthday. Somehow seeing 8/13 brought a lot of emotions to the surface, and even now two weeks later, the tears are welling again.

So many friends have 3 year old starting preschool. And it's hard to not think that would have been you. Three is a tough age and so many of my mom friends are complaining about their defiant, tantrum throwing toddlers. If only they knew I would give anything (anything!) to go round and round with my growing girl.

I can't believe it still hurts so much. Unfortunately I know of several friends who have very recently lost, one even at your exact gestation. I wish I could reassure them somehow, but the thought of saying..."it hurts forever" just doesn't seem comforting. I know it's silly to think there's anything I can say to comfort them. I was told so many things after losing you and so many of those things hurt.

But the sight, sound, touch, and love of your baby sister is what stops the tears and what makes me thankful. She is an amazing gift and without your loss, we would not have her. We wouldn't have known how to save her. Bremy your life was not in vain. My 23 weeks with you were truly so happy and full of wonderful memories.

I love you, my forever baby girl.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

21 Months

21 months started out with a pretty grumpy couple weeks. A little summer cold and a possible ear infection made for some trying days, but we ended on a great note and with no need for medical intervention. By the end of the month you were sleeping nicely and on the go all day! I love the level of understanding that's becoming apparent. Following directions is still a fun game to you and you continue to amaze me with your comprehension and retention. 

You've flourished at your first daycare. Always happy to be there and it was obvious you enjoyed the interaction. I was crushed when she told me that she would be closing her doors to return to teaching. That day I took you to the park and noticed that a daycare was there playing. I talked with the owner and felt like it was serendipitous that I met her that day. It's a much larger daycare, but very close to our house. It's more structured than where you were before, but I think it all worked out for the best. The first daycare was a great stepping stone for both of us. You are doing so great at the new place a couple days a week and it's making my week more productive at work. 
 4th of July pool party!

 Margaritas and ice cream for my 31st birthday!

 Pizza parlor play date with our friends. You loved making your own pizza!
 Bridal shower for cousin K in Napa. You had so much fun with all the ladies.
 And you especially loved the mini lemon blueberry cupcakes. 
You are such a love. Our giggle fests bring me so much joy.

you finally braved a real carousel horse instead of just sitting with me on the little bench. Such a big girl!
Nightly ritual: bath, jammies, make a mess of room to avoid bed

Bouncing around the trampoline park!
Date night for mom and dad at ATT park and a special treat to sit in the company suite! 

Open Gym play with our buds
You adore three year old, L and she loves laughing with you.
Eloise at 20 months
Weight: 26lbs
Height:   ?
Diaper size-  Size 5
Clothing Size: 2t and 3t tops, squeezing 2t sleepers and pants

 Your speech is blossoming and I love hearing your little voice. It's still hard to understand a lot of what you say, but you continue to speak with such conviction, I'm sure you know exactly what you are trying to get across. You now say "all done" and "all gone",  and recognize the letter Y (thank you Seasame Street). You also recognize circle as a shape and try to say it as best you can. I love that you point out Ys and circles absolutely every where we go. Nana has a cuckoo clock and a grandfather clock so you also love to say clock and cuckoo. 

You love kids and girls a little older than you seem to be particularly drawn to you. I think it's because you are ok being the little one. The daycare confirms you love to mimick the older kids and love when they engage you in their activities. 

Eating-  your new daycare provides food and they say you eat great. At home you have become more picky and are making more requests and rejections. I try my best to give you a variety. You still absolutely love cheese and greek yogurt. 

Sleep: You spent the first couple weeks of the month fighting nap time, and waking up wide awake in the middle of the night.  but by the end we were back to our two hour nap and mostly 10-11 hour night sleep. 

Favorite Toys: Anything that can be a pretend phone. You love to pretend to dial, say hi and bye and walk around as if you are talking to someone. It's adorable.